God, Fully Involved in My Life

Today, I had to cross two people off my Prayer For Healing prayer list. Not because they were healed, but because they had passed away.

I have had a really rough couple weeks on the inside in my heart of hearts, and it just didn't seem like it was getting better. It isn't because I'm upset that God didn't heal them, or even that I'm discouraged or baffled. I'm just sad. I'm sad about a lot of things in this world.

I'm sad that evil wins a lot. I'm sad that holiness and righteousness in on the decline. I'm sad when I realize that I am just one small person who probably isn't going to be able to change the world. I know this may sound awfully negative, but the sadness I feel cannot even compare to what God must feel.

What must our Father in heaven feel? He hates sin, sickness, and disease, surely He is upset when the righteous pass on due to it. Surely He hates when wicked people mistreat the just. The boiling of His anger and sadness I cannot begin to try to comprehend. I use to think the president of the United States was a busy guy flooded with all the problems of the nations, think about what our Father in heaven is flooded with. and yet He continues to stay involved in my life.

He is so involved in the details of my life, it's not even fair how He cares for me. It's so underserved that He paid a price for me at all. Even today, I reflect on all the tiny details of my life He completely orchestrated. The miracle of it all...

Oh, His kindness. Oh, His Mercy.

"I Look into Your eyes of mercy... I remember that Your heart is for me..."

Jon Thurlow chorus

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-gina

The God Who Pursues Me

In meditating on His love, I can't help but see how He has always been the one who pursued the relationship. It absolutely blows my mind to think about the uncreated God of the universes planning on how He will win my heart from the foundation of the Earth!!

Have you ever thought on this? I mean, really contemplated this?

"He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved." Ephesians 1:4-6

He chose.

From the foundation of the world.

He actually waits for us to come to Him, like a Father waiting for his child to cross the street, His eyes fixed on His son. Watching his son, everything around him, eagerly anticipating him to come. In Jeremiah 7 God is speaking to the people of Israel saying:

"... I spoke to you, rising up early and speaking, but you did not hear, and I called to you, but you did not answer," Jer. 7:13

God is always speaking, always reaching out to us. I have lived many days of feeling like He wasn't there, wasn't listening, and certainly wasn't interested. This is why I have re-committed myself to finding passages like this, and confessing the truth about God, who He is, and What He really says in His Word.

One last good passage to meditate on:

"Therefore the Lord will wait, that He may be gracious to you; and therefore, He wil be exalted, that He may have mercy on you." Isaiah 30:18

He actually is waiting for me, drawing me to Him. Oh! I need to soak on this a little longer!

If you haven't heard this chorus by Jon Thurlow, it has really been soaking this theme of How God Feels About Me in.

I'm holding on to Your divine love

I'm holding on and I'm not letting go

It's not my zeal, it's that Your love is strong

It's not my strength, it's that Your faithful

Prayer for today:

Thank you Jesus, for Your unrelenting pursuit of me. Thank You that You never leave me or forsake me! (Hebrews 13:5) Your always with me, oh the comfort of knowing the Comforter. Thank You Father of glory, amen.

The God Who Wants Me

I've been meditating on how God, the God of the universe, the God who spoke everything into existence, greater than the stars, bigger than galaxies- that BIG ONE GOD, that HE looks at me with desire

Do you know what it is like to feel undesirable? To feel like you aren't good enough? Your maybe not the best singer, speaker, teacher, parent, leader, etc. You feel sometimes like you don't measure up? I feel like that a lot, yet, HE looks at me with desire in His eyes. He actually wants me.

"Oh my dove, in the clefts of the rock, In the secret places of the cliff, Let me see your face, Let me hear your voice, For your voice is sweet, and your face is lovely." Song of Solomon 2:14

That He looks at me, and desires me, is unthinkable. That the uncreated God of the universe looks at me, that He even gives me a glance with His eye, but more than a glance, He looks with passion and desire in His eyes. Oh "such knowledge is too wonderful for me, it is high, I cannot attain it!" (Psalm 139:6)

"...His eyes were like a flame of fire..." Revelation 1:14

The burning in His eyes, oh the burning in His eyes. Father of Glory, reveal Your Son, Christ Jesus, to me, the one who knows me, sees me, and desires me. Oh God, acquaint me with His passion and desire for me. Be real to me, amen.